Heartbroken
Banshee is gone. In the early part of the week she seemed just fine - going up and down the attic stairs and jumping up into the garden window to birdwatch... Wednesday night, however, she did not eat her FancyFeast. I was worried but not panicked. When I got home from work on Thursday she seemed very subdued and on Friday I called the vet and made an appointment for Saturday morning. She had been moving around some, even down to the basement and back, but this morning she seemed very bad - not coming our from under the dinng room table until I picked her up and put her in the carrier. They took x-rays and did blood work, but, really, as we waited - about 2 and a helf hours - I could see her going down before my eyes. The prognosis was very bad, and I was sure she was ready for it to be over, even though she purred for me the whole time. She was purring when she died. (While we waited, I told her how cool it was that people far away knew and cared about her.) She lived with me for 14 years, and was at least 15 if not older. I miss her so much.
posted by Lizzy at 2:20 PM
10 Comments:
Oh God. I was hovering about waiting to hear, but in my heart of hearts, I knew. About an hour ago. Oh, Lizzy, dear Lizzy, dear friend, I wish I could be there with you now to hold your hand. You gave her such a good and happy life, and I know she will miss you as much as you miss her.
I make you a virtual cup of tea and tender you many loving hugs. Perhaps planting a rosebush, or other beautiful plant for her will soothe you?
Kisses and hugs to all 922 plus hoomins.
Hi, TPC - And thank you so much. I'm glad for her sake it was a short illness, and for mine that the decision, though terrible, was still straightforward - it was very clear to me that we shouldn't put her through anything else. She'll be cremated, and I'll bring her ashes home. The doctor and the technicians were extremely kind. Like you. Thank you again for your sweet and loving thoughts - I feel them, and they help.
I've been sitting here reading your comment and trying to think of something to say.
I planted a red camellia for Faridah Peeples and a purple-flowering tobacco for Ramon. I know you did the right thing. I hung on to Faridah for much too long, and it wasn't good for either of us.
I will think good thoughts of the beautiful girl and consoling thoughts for you. Hug all the little guys for me. Thank TPTB they don't obsess and worry the way peeples do. They're pragmatic little creatures and deal with each day as it comes. Nonetheless, they can have as many fond hugs and kisses as they want.
Oh, Dear Lizzy, I am so sorry to hear this terrible news. I've been thinking about you all day. Bless the Lovely Banshee, the Lovely Lizzy, and all at 922. I'm crying with you tonight, sweet friend.
With Love,
Pam
Dear Lizzy,
Just checking on you. Love, tpc
Hi, Pam - Thank you so much for your words / thoughts / feelings of support - it means a lot...
And TPC, thank you too, ever so much...
Im sorry for not commenting sooner, blogger comments have been misbehaving. I am so sorry about your little one. The empty space echos I know, and it will be a long time before it feels ok but it will. She had a good life with you and loved you and the other kitties. She is waiting for you in Heaven all healthy and purring...
Hokule'ah - Amen. And bless you for this comment - I know so many have experienced this heartbreak - and I so appreciate the affirmations - I do believe they are there, waiting for "us" - which includes many sweet spirits - how could heaven possibly exist with out our non-human beloveds?
L - I have been so horribly behind in checking my regular blogs, I'm only reading this now. I understand and respect why I didn't hear of this directly, and am so glad you have the little luvz at home to comfort you.
My heart is with you, and I commend your commitment to Banshee's well-being by letting her go when you both knew it was time. We have all struggled with that question and can only hope we do the right thing at the right time.
As you know, my Annah's ashes are now an integral part of a beautiful flowering crabapple tree, that has grown hardier and more lovely since being blessed with her organic essence. B will always be with you; take comfort in all the years of joy and easy living you gave to her. She was the luckiest of cats to be blessed with you as her human.
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